Tonight, I’m deciding to keep to myself for the rest of the month.

No facebook.
No skype.
Possibly cutting my phone line after my next payment.

So fucking sick of everything.

I don’t think I can have keep my 4 year friendship with my best friend any longer. Each year gets worse and more dramatic for no reason. For years I kept my cool, but now I’m becoming impatient. I don’t feel the same.

Sometimes its gets really awkward. Before it was always awkward in a good way, but now nothing is a laughing matter. 

She is always angry and complaining. Half of the time I don’t pay attention anymore because its the same shit over and over again. Ugh, this is pretty sad since its always about her…never about anyone else.

For the past few months, she never asked me, “How are you doing?” or “What are you doing this weekend?” Though she may know the answer, it kinda hurts that she doesn’t show any concerns for me anymore.

Now, our conversations are short.
We call/text each other if we need something.
We don’t hang out.

Fuck this. I can’t deal with it anymore.

I had a dream that I was at my old middle school. All my classmates were doing project graduation and we were running in big circles -_- We played this one game where you had to grab random shit from the stage in the gymnasium and carry it to your team’s home spot. Apparently when I came back to the spot, someone carried a huge rice cooker, toothpaste, and boxes of toothbrushes to my area. It was so weird…

After that dream was over with, I dreamed that I had a husband and child LOL. We were in a marketplace in Italy or France buying groceries. Later on, I found out my husband was trying to steal yogurt and stash it away in my bag @__@ I scolded him and said we’re able to pay it off LOL.

Soon after I realized we lost our child. However, I didn’t care LOL Then me and my husband walked into a scary theater/hotel. When we entered through the building, the theater room looked like the tunnel to hell D: The walls were a flaming red color and looked like blood was splatter all over the floors. And as for the elevator to the hotel rooms, it was VERY small. It only had enough space for one person (two if you were lucky) and it takes 3 hours to get to your floor ;__________;

……Weirdest dream ever.